Time for some new poems

So here are some new poems the first is untitled 

It won't go away the pain of memories
Killing all the beauty my heart once held
Your face in everything, a voice haunting me

Fading the seams of reality

To blur the world from sight

Lost in a world cast in to shadow

That world that cast your out

I need this more than ever to be long with you

Please won’t you give in to me the world?

Stay forever there don't leave me behind

I’m afraid of dreaming,
Of that story repeating,

All the screaming in the night
Monsters from shadow

I'm bleeding, flesh all rendered by the horrors
Losing all the light in myself in hopeless solitude
Won’t you come back into me? Only you can save me

I belong with you now,
Can’t you please see that
Stay forever hand in hand
Please, don't leave me behind.

The next is:

Relationship Anaemic

 I’m wasting moments

Procrastinating the days away

I can’t make sense of it

I ruin my chances all the time

Self destructive over thought

Complicating all the simple

But that just the way I go

It’s all broken from the start

 With this pessimistic heart

I fell love for her

Before my head or heels knew

It doesn’t matter though

With mind in over load

I can break even the best thing.

Stay awake with me

stay awake with me

To see the sun rise

stay awake with me

for the stars in your eyes

Stay awake with me

Mist from your breath

Stay awake with me

Wait upon the cool grass

Stay awake with me

Hands held tight

Stay awake with me

Move a little closer

Stay awake with me

Let me look into your eyes

Stay awake with me

And kiss me

This is another one awaiting a title

If you were here with me
I'd whisper sweet nothings in your ear
To appeal to all your fears

If you were mine, only mine
I'd drive you so much further down
twisting your mind for all of time

You will never realize
That all this  darkness lies inside
Deep down inside my mind

If you are feeling down
I’ come along and chain you to down
to penetrate your mind.

If you were lost
I’d be there to take all your trust
to break all your lust for life, my love

Into the Psycho

Rain falls rattling the tin roof

The tattoo drowns the screams

Madness smashed into the wall

Lightning strikes thunder bellows

The crashes a furniture breaks

Tears streak the blood down faces

Ash and fire blacken the sky

Sanity thrown to the wolves

Screams and thousand voices

Scratching metal drowns the tears

Fear falling to rage in the walls

Killing them slowly from inside out

So please come in to the Psycho

And another 2 without titles

Happy ever after never came

As the sunlight fades away

Waiting in the haunting silence

So I take the eternal moment

Fading day draws in to end

 Blackness shrouds calmly

Faces lie in shadowed grey

loneliness beneath the stars

Happy ever after never came

So I close my eyes

Let the pain bleed away

As hope breath fade

So the moonlight comes

All my dreams now ghosts

My cold heart brakes

As love falters in time

Happy ever after never came

So here I stand waiting

In the cold darkness

I know I am on my own

No heroes come to save me

Fairy tales fall to darkness

No one left anymore

So my heart dies in silence

No, happy ever after never came.

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We found another day with a chance

With suffering and pain we stand up

My restless soul, your loveless heart

We’ll tear the whole world down

With blackest minds the march

Surrounding all the iced dreams

So suffer on through their shame

We’ll tear the whole world down

Time and time again they come

Assaults on morality with no reason

Through the darkest nights

We’ll tear the whole world down

Eyed all hollowed of hope

Waiting for us to turn around

You lost in my arms

We’ll tear the whole world down

All their love is lost

The empty shells mindlessly

Against the darkest knight

We’ll tear the whole world down

Chilled fingers grasp at us

Pulling us apart in darkness

Through the shadows of hope

We’ll tear the whole world down

So you know!

With the Help of the Amazing CeeCee (who thinks I'm adorable when i am about to rage quit and destroy my laptop) I am trying to update and improve the look and effectiveness of this blog, maybe even its popularity to.

This is why I love her she puts up the the crazy <3

Update on Steam Punk ourfit

So as I mentioned earlier there maybe a post later on the the day and wow here is it... Shocking I know :D

I thought I;d share some of the the photos of the Steampunk outfit i have and the gun i painted. IT need more painting really to make it more acceptable but i like it atm.

So first off this is the gun just after I had finished painting, the picture quality is terrible! That what i get to using my phone and the living light being pretty useless. You can see my wonderful laptop and my amazing tool kit... that was sarcasm.

Next up is one of my favorite item from the outfit, a pocket watch, which i am tempted to wear out in general.

And finally some pictures of different coats, hat and position, there still some bits that need doing to it but i am fairly happy with the over all result so far.

Once again!

I know it been a while since i posted anything and I'm sorry.

I have been far too busy for my own good selling off stuff throwing stuff out and clearing out the overexercise amount of stuff I own.

but the flat is getting to a more bearable limit of junk to the point where i can pack stuff away! Hazzah!

So what have I been up to?

I start (and nearly finished) a Steampunk outfit, including guns, Still need to make holsters for gun and i'm waiting  on some goggles the need moding but asides from that nearly all done for The Asylum in September.

Some useful site for SP stuff are Steampunnews.co.uk and brassgoggles.co.uk/. The latter has a pretty good forum on it as well.

More updates to Follow i think